what I meant was..

you asked me what do I mean when I said u were disrespectful to women.

yes u love women. U can love them will all your heart. But loving them does not mean u respect them at the same time.

respect is

... keeping whatever conversation you have with her secret when she asked you to.

... doing whatever things with her a secret when she asked you to.

... not abusing her trust she have in you.

and many more...

you go figure k?

Enough already.. :)

Still having signs of withdrawal... But since it's the first day of work since I left for Brisbane... The sympthoms will fade soon... but the memories will forever stay... Thank you Amin, Nor and Fizah for those great times in Brisbane...

Okie world... I'm ready...

looking like a fucking idiot...

every time we get something new... or going thru a new experience esp if it's something positive, we tend to spend more time on it.... until it's just another routine...

it happens to everyone... no one is an exception...

I'm done explaining every single entry I made. It's either you get it.. or you don't...

what?

Here I am. All prep up to do a proper blog entry. Hooked my mac up to my TV and keyboard and hard drive all... but i am drawing a blank.

Oh... pussycat dolls just came up on my screen...

...wait a minute...

i miss them so much....

mixed

You know that kind of feeling you get at the bottom of your stomach right after you heard a bad news or unwelcomed surprise? For example when if you are a big fan of MJ and that the fact that his death hasn't sunk in yet? Or you are a big fan of Newcastle United and how you felt when they were relegated next season? Or when you come to a realisation that you are not able to take up a new challenge or handle a perfectly fucked-up situation? Or that you just can't handle emotions properly? That kind of feeling where you knew you had tried your best but the right people doesn't seem impressed with the result? Or that feeling when I had when Nini left to work in AUH? And that same feeling came back this year when Amin left to study in Brisbane? And the same feeling return when I had to walk thru those gates that says Departing Passengers Only" last night at Brisbane Airport.

oh wait... I forget. I am just a normal human being who knew people who aren't like me. No that does not make me feel special. There are people who care and there are people who doesn't. If only I could spot the difference.

All I want to say is, if I can feel this much emotion right now, will I be able to feel again when I fly...??

in the night I hear them talk.

So what happens in the end?

Anyways, I was in Brisbane for the past week, as some of you can see from my pictures. I dread for the trip to end as I would be on a 7 day quarantine when I return...

I will miss Amin alot.... :)

booboohoohoo

At times like these.. I need my family the most...