we were told to reach for the stars....

go get your sunglasses...

Here I am blogging every time I had too much time at work.�

I am watching the repeat telecast of the American Idol season finale. On Chanel 5.

I read mixed reviews about the outcome of the finale. Here's my take:

I prefer Kris than Adam. Why you ask? Well, first and foremost it is a singing competition. And Kris sang better. If American Idol had been about theaterics or dramatisation, than I'll be pissed that Adam did not win. Yes, some of you might say that you are suppose to have your own way of singing and Adam's way of singing captured the audiences attention better. Well that is what I call 'Screaming'. Which "artiste" like Jessica Simpson does best. Presence or what I would call 'attracting attention' just like how Kim Kardashian and Paris Hilton do their thing. I am not denying that Adam has talent. He does have it, but maybe he can do it on a different platform. I won't be�surprise�if he will appear on TV more than you will hear him on the radio.

Since Obama became the president of US of A, America did change. Especially with the way their mind works. Like Fee says, finally we can have faith in the Americans. hahaha.. Well maybe not everything, but at least in entertainment. I hope during the upcoming Singapore Idol, Singaporean will use their brains to vote instead of their hearts. Singapore Idol is a singing competition. Not a popularity contest. We have MTV Awards and other polling sh*t for that kinda thing. Please vote according to their singing ability. Read: SINGING ABILITY. If you think Singapore Idol should be different that American Idol, then I don't think Singapore Idol should be the American Idol franchise. What a waste of money for Mediacorp to pay for the rights and licensing and all but then they wanna be different. Then they should have just stick to the original talent show they had 2 years ago where even bands can audition. Which I'm pretty sure by now 70% of Singaporeans have forgotten about. (Recap: Fendi and by Definition won the competition btw. And I can only recall the name of the show after googling it, which was called 'Live the Dream') Well I can only say, finally Mediacorp has woken up.�

On a totally different note, I am missing Amin so much, that I have been meeting Nor and Fizah way too often to be healthy. Him leaving Brisbane is a way of making me believe that a 4-way friendship is the way to go. No matter how many times the three of us meet up, it will never be enough cos Amin is NOT around. Hehehe... nevertheless I hope to meet him soon. Amin, I love you and I am missing you so much.

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Four years on... I'm still hurt... My heart still aches.. although not as much as before...

There are no words available in my limited vocab that can describe the feeling of your heart breaking... hurt by the one person you love and also hurt by another person u truly care and had trusted. No one really understand what I went thru for the past 4 years. And I didn't believe anyone who said "I understand what you are going thru." Cos as far as I am concern, no one actually cared abt me or been thru what I went thru. 

I just want to say to those out there. Who have the intention of breaking the heart of the person who loves you. And the person you once loved. Do we really deserve that kind of treatment just because you tot you found greener pastures? I am not saying that I deserve your love or that I should be loved by you in return. After all those years... If u haven't, do some serious thinking. If u have, good luck in your future endeavors.

But now, 4 years on... I realise, I am actually really happy for them. Except for those times when I really really missed those old times at TP library, Seletar Dam and many more adventures we had when we were young. I am also happy that he kept his word. If he ever broke his words... he'll end up having a broken neck. Actually I still hope he remembers what he promised me one night during a MSN session... But so far so good... 

But one incident happened early this year that I kinda have to rake up the past and i'm sorry for the individuals concerned.

A message to someone I really cared about: 

I understand what you are going thru except maybe it's worse for you as you were so in love and that I knew you gave everything you could in the relationship. Your eyes were always filled with love whenever we talked abt her when she's not around. You eyes beam with pride whenever you talked about her regardless the topic. Your face glows whenever you were reading an sms from her. Your voice filled with hope when you talked about your dreams and future with her. I truly understand the fact that you need sometime away and recollect your thoughts and plan the future differently this time. The near future at least. For me... I had a group of close knit friends who was there for me. I didn't exactly run to my family when it happened to me and that was a mistake. I ran away and isolated my self from you guys. But you are lucky to have all of your family behind you. I never once doubt that you will be able to make it through this ordeal like how you have made thru others. You know you can talk to me. But u have to remember that it took me 3 years to get over it. Although sometimes I still get the pangs of it. Take care of your health. It's okay. Semua takdir Allah. Dah tak ada jodoh. Minta keredhaan Dia in whatever you do in the future. Insya Allah, he'll show you the way. Don't ask Allah to make your life easier. Ask Him to make you stronger. :)

in the words of Russell Peters: Be a Man.

Love,

your one and only, Kak Lah.

p.s: I hope and pray that no one will ever have to put themselves in my shoes.

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
Was the hardest part
And the strangest thing
Was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining in the clouds
Oh and I
I wish that I could work it out

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
You really broke my heart
And I tried to sing 
But I couldn't think of anything
And that was the hardest part

I could feel it go down
You left the sweetest taste in my mouth
You're a silver lining the clouds
Oh, and I
Oh, and I
I wonder what it's all about [x2]

Everything I know is wrong 
Everything I do it just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
Oh and thats the hardest part
That's the hardest part
Yeah, thats the hardest part
That's the hardest part