in th end...

i don't even matter...

one of those days

"another crack in my heart... 

another picture on the wall... 

another way to spend an evening when there's no one there at all..."

To my friends in Singapore and Malaysia, Merry X'Mas...

To Mark, Elsa and Mike... Merry X'mas in 6 mins... 

To Siti n Nini, Happy Manicuring... :)

that one person

well....

I have been online alomost all the time while I'm here... and it has been all good....

The one person I needed to see online is not online.... Just need to tell you that I misses you the most... but I guess you are busy huh...

Day One

Hey there pple...

It's my first day here in the US... So far it has been great... the weather has been great too... still can't believe I'm here... it's very much like Australia.. only colder... still trying to speak louder...

Well... after taking the flight here and stopping over at Narita and while waiting for my connecting flight... I have come to a conclusion that Singaporeans... are too pampered... We are so used to receiving damn good service from Singapore Airlines that we have set them as a benchmark when it comes to comparing airline flight attendant service and when the slightest incident happen you just cannot help but think(who dare say it out loud) that we deserve better treatment or "I should have flown with SQ". We are so used to the efficiency from the staff of Singapore Changi Airport that when we have to wait for a little bit in other airports... comes another comment about what a bad airport this is... but I believe strict security checks are happening in all the aiports over the world... especially here in US or airports that have flights flying to the US. I know I seems to be rambling when I should be having a good time... But I just gotta let it all out... cos I have swollen eye lid due to the not-so-clean pillow on the plane.. now my left eye is smaller than my right eye... meaning I can't use my contact lens and look pretty in my oakleys....

So... anyway... right now Soul Distraction is jamming and rehearsing for their New Year's Eve's show... I really see something in this band.. the music are ONE united and Elsa's voice compliment it... everything is good... and they are GREAT... I can't wait to watch them perform on stage... it's crazy...

It's freezing cold here... like right now, it's -10 degrees Celsius... and this morning when I reach... it was -4 degrees Celsius and that is with the SUN shining in my face... I have never appreciate the sun more today than any other day in my life... hahahahaha.. it's really like a culture shock to me... but I'm pretty sure I'll get use to it... I'm sure my mum will like the weather here... just like England.

I just read Nini's message to me and she was getting ready to board the plane to NYC... Which should already be airborne. I'm so proud of her for doing it on her own... Hanisa should already be on her way to Houston... howdie babe...

Well.. I guess that's all for now.. When I upload my pics in my comp.. i willl show u guys more... which remind me btw I forget to bring my Ixus camera... so I have to make do with just my 350D... and my Canon FS100....

Love,

Art Othman

p.s: I was thinking while on the plane.. The air stewardess on SQ are called Singapore Girl right? so the air stewards are known as the Singapore Boy? Can someone enlighten me on this. Thank you.

the time has come...

Okie pple in Singapore...

See y'all next year... Have a Merry X'mas and a Happy New Year...

peace out....

wait for it...

Back in september... I made an entry abt me signing up for the 10km of the Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon...

Will update more abt it later... sorry for the lack of pictures..

my place...

So... Out of the blue... he sent me a text msg. It went on for the whole day...

Now... I can't help myself anymore. Those feelings that should be kept deep inside... Overflowed and is on the brink of spilling out...

Please... stay away from me... it's for the better... I know where I stand... and I don't want to wait anymore...

On a totally different note... 18 more freaking days... gone where the days when the first digit was 6.. or 5 or 4.... now it's the digit 1... arghz... soon it will be single digit... serious.... so exciting...

not mine...

So... I finally got my hands on the E71... not many people know. Cos it has yet to be seen out of my pocket... 

Next... Siti has yet to get her phone... will accompany her this saturday... talking abt Saturday.. we have big plans this coming saturday... it's going to be a fun day . Outing with Nini, Sheeta, Siti and Fitri... Irah will only join us after her shift.

Met up with Zila and Dzul (pengantin baru) together with the Berkat Gang... Zila and Dzul bought for me a nice brown pashmina from Krabi. hehehehe

So for the past few days... a song was stucked in my head. It's by an Indonesian Band, Nidji called Hapus Aku. Well... I'm quite slow with Malay/Indon Music Scene.. so when I like this song.. it might be a bit stale. But what the hell... a nice song will remain to be a nice song...

Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Chorus:
Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

can't help but laugh...

Here I am siting in my car at the basement carpark of Bugis Junction. I happen to click on a link which I saw in my Multiply inbox. I can't help but raise my eyebrows at one of the things that I read when the page finished uploading. Some people tried so hard to look and sound right and doing those reverse psychology thing. So what if it's your blog? And that you can say whatever you wanna say on your blog? Please do not state the obvious. Every blogger have the right to say anything they want on their blog. I think no one gives a flying f**k about what you have to say. Why such sentence? Defence mechanism? Did something out of norm that constitutes public "flogging"?? hahahaha Touch your heart and figure... where you went wrong... 

So anyway... Rafidah's wedding this weekend.. I can't wait to take many many photos... hahaha But be warned. Only my contacts will be able to see it. Due to some restrictions as one of my friend can't be seen on the internet. hehehehe... Irah oh Irah... mengapa susah sangat??? hhehehehehehehe 

I have yet to upload Zila's wedding pics... but I dun seem to have time.. tgk lah... nak blog pon kena find time in the car while waiting... Iwan's b'day celebration will be tmr evening... but I dunno where... the LepakGang will only update me tmr... 

Ok... gotta go... Siti waiting for me... tak sabar2 nak beli iPhone dia.. hehehe OKB lah kata kan... 

Of Presidents and Food...

Firstly I want to congratulate the Americans about making the right choice of President. I am all for changes. Sometimes tradition is not everything, please take note Republicans. And those in the South... wake up pls.... Alaska in the north west.. you too... 

Next I want to make it known to the whole word (if you do not know already) about how possessive I can be when it comes to food. MY food. I'm not "tamak" or "gelojoh". I enjoy good food. If you want some ask. I'll get more for you. Just don't take mine. I'm serious. I do not mind paying more. Just don't take mine. I do not mind cooking more. Just don't take mine. You want to play with my laptop? Go. You want to watch tv in my room? Go. You wanna use my cameras? Go. You wanna use my car? Go. You wanna lie on my bed? Go. You wanna borrow my clothes? Go. JUST DON'T MESS WITH MY FOOD!!!

What do I mean by 'mine'? Those that I specifically 'labeled'. Like my frozen sambal sotong. My frozen ikan terubok. NO. You don't serve it to Aiman just because he's the youngest and the only boy in this family and that you love him more then the rest. I don't care about your feelings. I care about what is mine. Or do not cook it in some lauk that I have never eaten before thinking that I will eat it just because my fav fish is in there. NO. I am angry. Really angry... Yes I appreciate your effort, grateful and thankful for the help. But angry cos you mess with my food. 

Also please do not take whatever is ON my plate when I'm eating. Please ask first. I will give you. Just have the basic respect for food. All of you should respect food... 

Yes I can see people laughing when they read this blog... esp my cousins who know me well enough... I've been keeping quiet guys. But now I just cannot take it anymore. Just leave me alone with me food k.

I'm really hungry now.. and pissed cos my week's supply of Ikan Terubok is in some stupid NOT nice lauk....

AAAAAAaaaaaaAAaaAaRRRRrrRRrrRGggGgGGGggHHHhhhhHHhhZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!

Man Utd 4 - 3 Hull

I want to blog and say stuff... but I am not in the right frame of mind to do it... the juice are just not flowing...

short updates...

Siti's ANOP terms ends on the 31.10.08...

Zila single status ends on the 31.10.08...

I am so happy for Zila... and I'm so happy that she will embark a new journey with Dzul... More updates on her wedding later...

chill peepsz...

miss...

I dunno if I had said this before... but..

I miss siting next to Zahidah and talking loads and loads of crap and making each other laugh...

I miss laughing with Zahidah about Wahidah you is sleeping next to Sharifa who is oblivious to the fact that her partner is sleeping...

I miss looking at Sharifa adjusting her hair while looking at the small mirror that is place on the table in class...

I miss having a heart to heart talk with Zahidah and Sharifa...

I miss having to think hard and try to understand what Aisah is talking about... I also miss telling Aisah to slow down and pronounce every word properly...

I miss writing in the Buku Haram and passing it around...

In short.. I miss the Sorority Sisters 05.....

art othman

p.s: Irah... Not that I dun miss you... but I meet up with you quite regularly lah babe... 

p.p.s: Hey pple... I will be in KL (again!! yes I know) this weekend till Monday...

puas sudah aku menjadi kesilapan mu...

“I know a girl; she puts the colour inside my world…”

So you thought you have been misunderstood. And that I am all wrong about you and that no one will understand you and can give you what you want. Nobody seems to be catering to your needs. And then I sympathizes you… wrong I was.

“I’ve been down so low people look at me and they know….”

I've stopped laughing... but I haven't stop making people laugh. I don't believe they should be deprive of happiness and sincere laughter. It's weird that I am still sane when I'm plagued wtih mixed feelings every single day.

“when my head is strong but my heart is weak…”

Was it my fault that I followed my emotions rather than use my brains? Why did you have to use mental strength against everyone?

“when you get what you want but not what you need…”

What I realize is that you are just trying to fill up the void that has been emptied for so long. It didn't matter to you how you are going to do it. It didn't matter who it was. You are just out to *echo...* hey is that an echo from your soul?

"she'll tease you... she'll unease you... all the better just to please you..."

Just like a spoilt child. You give some but took it away expecting more. You gave me hope, and then you blame me for the same action that you did. I sick of being your play thing when you are bored.

“I lay down on your bed of coals, offer up my heart and soul…”

I do not expect anything in return. I do not need you to do things for me. I do not need the emotional coaster ride that you have led me to. The ups that I look forward to. The downs which ripped my heart out through my mouth.

“don’t you remember you told me you love me…”

At the hospital. On a clear moonlit night. Not too loud to let others hear you. But soft and clear enough to convince me that you meant it. I read it wrongly as fate would have it. Weird though, no matter how I tried not to remember, it kept coming up every time 'Ruang Rindu' goes on air.

“I tried to go on like I never knew you…”

A fool I must have been, to pretend that you are a stranger when you meant so much to me in my heart. My nonchalant attitude when it comes to knowing you. I am ashamed of my indifference. Even when you are so far away, it does not help make things any easier dude...

“there’s no light at the end of the tunnel tonight…”

I was trapped. There was no way I could escape for I am in too deep. I tried to breathe, gasping for air. Clawing my way out did not help for I was only hurting myself in the end. Is that a scratch I see? Will the wound remain there forever to remind me of the emotional hell that I went through.

“I don’t want to waste another day… keeping it inside is killing me…”

So I went to the same hill and let it all out at 3am in the morning. All the replied me was cold air. Telling me that my questions won’t be answered tonight. There I stand at the spot where we sat. Angry. Stoned. Cold. Alone.

“there’s a light… a certain kind of light…”

I made and error in judgement yet again. But it is not going to keep my from giving up everything single time. Will I finally be able to let all these go...??

“a new day has come…”

"mengapa? aku yang terluka. aku yang merana. aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini...."

all about eve...

"aku yang lemah tanpa mu..."

You see... You gave me strength to move and charge on the last time... You are some sort of guru that have the capability to know or see through others and pin point their weakness and use it for your own gain... 

"hanya ingin kau tahu, besar nya cinta ku... tingginya hayal ku bersama mu..."

Not that I can see the future but I knew there was something between us... or maybe I imagine too  much... but that can't hurt right?

"izinkan ku mencuri khayalan dengan mu..."

That night when we both were under the stars on that hill, I was confuse of what was going on. Your actions didn't help untie the complications that I had in my head. More and more questions rang up in my head... you just can't deny the vibes that night... you can't... but you will have reasons to say there was nothing...

"kau datang dan pergi oh bergitu saja..."

I don't even have to explain the meaning of this... those times you left me alone... you won and left me wondering... when you came back I can't even get myself to commit to think if I'm angry... if you come back again that is...

"kini hanya duka, bersulamkan pasrah..."

We are from two different worlds... but when I'm with you... nothing else matters... it's like there is only the two of us and I'll be on cloud nine... but it was you who choose not to be a part of my life and the ball is pretty much in your court...

"namun semuanya berubah dalam sekelip mata..."

What I thought was normal was obviously not normal to you... Every other night I toss and turn in bed thinking where it could have gone all wrong. Thinking which part of it all could have been avoided to make it all better...

"relaku menunggumu... seribu tahun lama lagi..."

Till the next time we meet again... I wonder when that will be... will I still be the same person... will you not change? Will I really wait or have a change of heart and move on... should I move on? I already waited twice... What would I look like if I waited some more?

"tak ku sesali cintaku untukmu"

Everytime when someone walked away from me, I will not consider it as love lost... it will somehow find me in future... may not be in form of the one that I would love but nevertheless would love me for who and what I am... I am human after all... 

"tanya sama hati mengapa merindu..."

You are so far away. Distance and absence made the heart grew fonder but in your case... it fades... and again you made me wait and wonder...

"ku tinggalkan memori bersama mu... ku undur diri bersama harapan..."

You built a wall around you that even the Great Wall seem nothing in comparison. You have repel those who truly love and cares for you for you think that they are all one and the same... you though wrong but you won't realise...

"semakin aku hitung dalam cinta... tiada kuasa mampu mehalangnya..."

towards a free country...

I sure most would have notice the countdown counter in my blog and my multiply.

So last week, I finally bought my plane ticket online through nwa.com/asia. Then I bought my traveling insurance through income.com.sg. I notice that NTUC Income quoted the lowest premium for about the same coverage. I checked the quotations from AIG and also AVA. And decide to buy from NTUC Income. It's quite easy actually and cheaper by $5 if you pay by Credit Card. I recommend that all of you should buy Travel Insurance everytime you guys are traveling, even if you are going to Malaysia. Like seriously. You never know what can happen to you when you are traveling. Yes, it's a joyous occasions but what the hell kan? Bak pepatah melayu, Suka suka, lama lama jadi Duka. So just as a pre-caution and at a small price you will feel safer.

So Kak Imee is also going to the US on a working trip in October/November. Not sure when... If I ain't wrong she's going to the East Coast whereas I'll be at the West Coast. For now I am going to assume that the weather will all be the same. Oh yeah Kak Imee.. kalau ader extra US Dollar, boleh lah donate to me...hehehehehehe

So Hari Raya was a quiet affair, just like the past years. Will update on Hari Raya in another entry... 

The weekend before 1st Oct

I was a very tired person on Friday when I came back home from work. So my parents decide just to go JB and do a little shopping and head back to singapore leaving other business to be done on Sunday instead. The moment I reached home... I fall into a deep sleep. But my "darling" sister woke me up abt 2 hrs into my sleep and made me fetch her from school. I also had to bring along my guitar and the amplifier so that she can use it for some Children's Day concert.

I was still feeling damn tired from it all. When I realise I had a msg from Irah about going for supper, but she was tired too from her F1 duty. Then I talked to her last night and it was full of crap.. I can hear her taking her dosage of those asthma pumps in between the conversations... hahahahaha... Irah just so you know... I'm not afraid of You-Know-Who. I can easily pick up the phone and dial her number. It's just that I don't want to.

Also I accompanied my cousin and her parents to pick up her spanking new white Honda Fit at Turf City yesterday. The thrill of getting a new ride was in the air. A feeling which I experience 5 years ago when I first got my Kereta Bajet. And the feeling which I totally avoid when we got the Kereta Bajet II... Congrats Zakiah. I think it's time you think of a name for your car... and join the club of naming your gadgets/devices/cars.

Also before I went to Turf City, I went to Courts Causeway Point with my mum. We wanted to get new dining chairs. My sister insisted that we wait till end of the year and get Picket and Rail dining chairs but... It was way over my budget... so forget it. We also bought new microwave oven to replace the one my sister blew up about one month ago. I wonder what the heel was she doing in the kitchen when she isn't really much of a cook. Kalau masak air tu maybe dia pandai ah...

Okielah.. I need to go ... I'm back to being addicted to E!....

bored at home...

i was doing some cleaning in my room... not much difference before and after... hahahaha... just less dust that's all...

here is a pic of my diecasts...

my sunday

I swear... when Mas Selamat ran away early this year.. someone somewhere had placed a curse on me for the rest of 2008.

From then till now... I have yet to see or to come across a positive event for me... I was not even spared on my birthday...

This is totally like the lowest point of my life... Whoever out there who thinks 2008 has been great, is either Michael Phelps or Mas Selamat... other than that... I dun think anyone else esp those in the Home Team thinks that 2008 is a good year.. it has been harsh harsh harsh... Thank God for RPS... hehehehehe....

So am looking forward to 17th December 08. Goodbye Singapore...

art othman

p.s: To those who message me with nice b'day wishes, Thank you so much. It wasn't on purpose that I replied your msgs late. I was really busy at work... Pls forgive me. But Thank you once again... and the score is still at 3-2.

i want this toy...

toy might not be the appropriate word to use here....

I want the Yamaha Tenori-On.

I WANT I WANT I WANT......!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tenori-on

click on the link above to find out what it really is... cool lah dude...

black day

Personally, I think that a man has stoop to the lowest point when he hits a woman. To me, regardless of what the woman has done, I don't think anyone has to right to hit her especially if you are not her father. Unless you are disciplining her with regards to religion, I don't think a father should hit his adult daughter. Well, then again, that is what I believe and some of you may beg to differ. Different people have different opinions. Emotions sometimes affect your actions, esp in the spur of the moment.

 

I rarely blog about work or the people I work with. Because of the nature of my work, I choose to avoid talking about them. But an incident that happened recently, had blown my fuse. I totally lost all the respect I had for one of my colleagues. It might have something to do with the first paragraph I wrote... I was a little bit upset with the incident but I let it pass and I hope it will not affect my working attitude. I am trying to be as professional as possible. Aiyah, maybe I am still feeling angry... 

 

I'm back to not being able to sleep again... what the hell...

 

Anyway.. I was in office the whole day today and I composed a very long email to all my good friends... and their replies was a little disappointing till Feefee's reply... I will upload the email tomorrow... cheers pple...

 

edited:

 

Earlier when I was in office, I made a wishlist of what I might want for my birthday. And all the while I was HINTING at a nintendo Wii. While the rest had replies which totally avoided the whole issue.. and maybe Nor was nice enough to at least look for pple to share the present, and Fizah proclaiming me to be too free at work and then Nini's reply was all about explaining why I should not have anything on the list and Starbucks city mugs... Fitri came up with what at first I though to be a positive reply. It turns out to be "positive" instead. Read her reply below....

 

kak aidiah 

 

i can get you the wii games.. but i'll chose the type of games..

 

The titles available: 

1) wii......................................... duri.. 

2) wii................ are-the-champion....

3) wii ............... don't-want-to-buy-you-a-present

4) wii................... walk to the right... as-we-walk-to-the-left-as-we-walk-as-we-walk-as-wii-walk-all-night

5) wii.................. belajar-ayat-ayat-quran

6) wii.............light-my-fire

7) wii.............. berzanji

8) wii........... figure-out-the-puzzle. 

9) wii.............. go-go-power-rangers

10) wii............ wish-you-a-merry-xmas....

 

do inform me which one you like.. give me a call for more details of games... 

 

 

love,

Wii-FiiFii

 

 

that's fitri for you... 

 

sigh..

these days

I have been doing a lot of stuff of late...

 

All work and no play makes Art a boring person.

 

I have 2 impromptu trips to KL recently... maybe not as impromptu as the one in May... but equally as last minute... The trip made me realise certain things... I realise that I said certain things without conviction... there were certain things that I did which I was not aware of... not that it is wrong but just that I didn't think I was that strong to have done it... and that I could actually give advise and not fear that it might be wrong. hahaha... sorry Siti if u are reading this.. some of the things I said to you I really mean it... but some of the things... mcm hard to believe that it came from me. Hahahaha…

You see from where I came from, I am not much of the one giving advice as oppose to needing a good one. Half the time, ok make that most of the time; it was I needing an advice. But when faced with a situation that I should be the one giving it, I was shocked it came quite naturally. Seeing that you actually remembered some of what I had said, I was even more stunned.

So anyway back to these two trips… besides what I had to do officially (yes there was another agenda besides a short getaway trip with Siti),We had so much fun travelling around in KL like locals. Taking the public transport was an eye opener. The trip to Berjaya was “scary” enough that we decide to walk back slowly to our hotel room. And yes, We stayed at Traders Hotel again. I enjoyed talking to and spending time with Siti and it was really nice having her around.

Then the following week, which was the weekend that just passed, I went to KL again… Nini was in KL this time, and I miss her so much. It was great spending time with Nini. I almost felt normal again. Those close to me will know what I mean by that. Well, besides Nor, Amin and Fizah, Nini is one of the rare few that will bring me back to earth when I venture out too far.

Went up the Menara KL and took loads of pictures. Should have break fast at the Restaurant huh?

I was in office yesterday… and it felt different. I think it’s time for a change. 

Anyway, this morning when I open Safari, the homepage showed the new iPod Touch... and the 32GB goes for like $600 plus... like how cool is that?? I know of someone who had to pay $848 for the previous iPod Touch. Ouch... I think she'll kill me if she finds out. heheheh...

Oh yeah... I can't stop listening to Rihanna's and Ne-yo's Hate That I Love You So and David Archuleta's Crush.... Why? And who?? Who??? 

a quickie..

HA! the title might seem a lil bit wrong kan?? esp Bulan Ramadhan nie...

but I just wanna have a short update...

I dunno how but my colleagues somehow manage to convince to sign up for the Standard Chartered Marathon this Dec... I'm running for the 10km route... orang gila je run the 21km or 42 km...

So cheer me on.. I've got abt 3 mths to start preparing.. while the rest of my colleagues (who are running the 21km and 42km) have already start theirs MONTHS ago... dammit...

...my life recently...

I am so busy with work that I've forgotten how to live... sad isn't it?

I am so busy with things that are not important that I didn't realize that the meaningful things in my life are drifting away...

I am so busy thinking about the future that I missed out on the present...

I've been so busy studying that I've lost all knowledge...

I've so busy worrying about nothing that I've forgotten how to smile...

I've been trying to keep Singapore safe that I forget how to protect my interest...

I've been so sensitive and careful abt hurting others that I cut myself while doing it...

I am so into showing pple the right way that I did not realize I have no directions in life...

I was busy trying to keep my friends, that in that process I "rejected" those who actually define the term "friend"...

I have been busy looking for things that I want that I failed to see the things that I actually need that is in front of my eyes...

I stopped looking for love knowing that love will not coming looking for me... unfortunately at the same time, I stopped loving.

art othman's reflections...

p.s: I don't have anymore space for my motorbike models... dammit..

... ultimate driving machine ...

Okie... I admit... I'm GATAL.

Today I followed my friend known as Bird, to Performance Motors... He wanted to look at the BMW Motorad... That is totally a different story... where as I was just an innocent "follower"

After he enquired abt the GS 1200 Adventure... and got the information he wanted... he blamed me for bringing him there... in Nini's words "Eh HELLO....." he was the one who drove... so who brought who where??? hahahah So now the question is... October?? or January... hahahaha Choose Bird... Choose.... it's your call... all I'll be doing is pose next to it and take LOADS of pictures and pass of the bike as mine... muahahahahaha....

Then I made my way to the car showroom and led myself to.... the 3 series and X3... SO PERASAN sey aku... macam real jer gi tgk kereta... anyway I took the price card(that's what they call it) to show my mum... and the X3 is for my sister... see how none of it is for me... that is how self-less I am.... (got prawn behind the stone)

so weekend is coming soon... weddings again... arghs.... I still got some Malaysian Ringgit to burn.....

... URGENT ...

What ever I'm going to talk abt next grant an immediate blog entry...

I just open my gmail account and read news from Borders...

And guess what...

TALES OF BEEDLE THE BARD will be in stores on December 4th...

YES! YES! YES!

Kak Imee told me on saturday that it will only be sold in US... but it seems that Borders is bringing the book in... So Kak Imee.. we shall just buy it in Singapore.. Kalau nak tunggu me go US and bring the book back.. you'll only read it after 4th Jan.

I LOVE...

"kita singkir kan gadis itu..."

I can't believe this is how I spent my Sunday Nights... for the past few months...

I have been watchin 80's malay movies... at least I can get some laughs from looking at their outfits, hairstyles and weird storylines... hahahaha...

Tonight is the Azura show... featuring Ogy Ahmad Daud and Jamal Abdillah... 

I really cannot stand the way Jamal acts and how he deliver his lines but apparently he was the BIG lah during his time...can't stand the way he tries to act like a casanova... mana punya handsome jer... and Ogy is a good actress... but sometimes she over dramatised... well as I watched the show in my room, I am chatting with my sister over MSN and boy... can we "kutuk" them like there's no other "or-bit" 80's malay movies. But one thing my sister said that I agreed is that, their use of malay language is good. Something which we rarely get from the malay show/ variety tv/ drama by local production... that is why I guess, Sunday evenings are the only time I turn to Suria and watch the 80's movies... not because I want to laugh or what... but seriously, I believe these old shows have more qualities than the current shows right now... Of course nothing can beat the old movies by Allahyarham Tan Sri P Ramlee...

These 80's movies, bring back memories and I get to watch veteran actor and actress... tlike, the Late Yusni Jaafar, Accapan, Noreen Nor, young Rahim Razali, young Ahmad Tarmimi, young Noor Kumalasari, Ebby Saiful, Datuk Shah Reza, A Galak before he became Gen(short for Sergeant) in Gerak Khas and so on... 

So anyway I have not been updating this blog for quite sometime...

Latest news... Kak Imee and Farid finally got engaged in a quiet and small affair on our National Day... the planned wedding date has been set to sometime next year on October... That's like 2 family weddings for me next year.. well as long as it's not in November '09, I'll be fine... cos I have big plans to tour/backpack Europe in November 2009. Yeay!! Nothing's concrete yet but the time frame is confirmed...

Last Saturday, 03.08.08, I went for a drive along the east coast of Malaysia. I already uploaded the photos under the album Drive Up North... It was refreshing... but I aimed to do it on my own soon... hehehe... 

Next month will be fasting month... :)

Will update more when I can concentrate better.. cos half of me is watching Azura.. I can't believe it... all because of my sister..

love,

Art Othman

p.s: if you are wondering what the title is all abt, it's a line from the Azura movie... Kental kan?? 

... the story ...

allow me to let u guys in on my secret....

as of today... it is officially 4 weeks that I have not had a proper sleep...

and it is amazing that I am still walking around, going to office, play netball, drive here and there as if per normal...

excited

i am excited...

because...

noraini just passed me my orders from amazon.com...


amazon.com never failed me... and with that... i seriously think i SHOULD stop online shopping... dammit....

....

and the little boy who was sitting at the staircase said....

"I saw the man drop....."

destiny's child

I went to watch the J Div gals play soccer against the other Div. I think they played well. Halijah wasn't around cos she had to do the night shift that day. After that we went to have dinner at Swensen's. I didn't care where I ate that night what I ate. All I wanna see is Siti Fatimah eating... that's all. 

left to right:(back row) Siti Fatimah, SI Liza, Insp Khamisah and Clarissa

(front row) Maisurah, Munirah and Elfy

i'll update more when I upload ore photos...

...my weekend...

Tomorrow's Monday... and I caught the Monday Blues Bug already...

anyway... I'm so bored that I feel like telling people about what I did over the weekend... 

Saturday I went to fetch my mum from her workplace and then we headed down to Arab Street where we bought cloth materials for the girls for my sister's wedding that will happen in about 10mths time... then we went to Tanjong Katong Complex to send my baju hari raya... then we went to Punggol for a wedding reception...

After that we went out with the cousins... and had dinner at Simpang Bedok... after Simpang Bedok we went to Henderson Waves to lepak... we met some insensitive Singaporeans there... no surprising though... we dun mind if u wanna bring ur pet(dog) along for the walk, but the very least u could do is use a leash and if u see a Muslim walking by, make sure your dog doesn't try to brush itself... cos it is definitely NOT cute looking at your dog chasing the Muslim around, u stupid f**k.

On Sunday.... I woke up super late... then went to buy durians and then went to Mustafa centr where I go buy my toiletries for the next 2 mths or so... i spent abt $250 there. Cos i bought a addidas T-shirt and 3/4 pants... 

And now here I am... staring into my computer... and I do still listen to Jason Mraz 'I'm Yours', but this time I'm listening to it together with Celine Dion's "Pour Que Tu M'aimes Encore". Like they say... The French Language sounds sexy... that is if you don't understand what it means.. tak kan bila dorang maki kau pon sexy kan?? itu nama dia cari pasal babe...

anyway.. before I leave... here's the French lyrics to Celine's song and below is the translation...

J'ai compris tous les mots, j'ai bien compris, merci


Raisonnable et nouveau, c'est ainsi par ici


Que les choses ont chang, que les fleurs ont fan

Que le temps d'avant, c'tait le temps d'avant

Que si tout zappe et lasse, les amours aussi passent

Il faut que tu saches

 

J'irai chercher ton coeur si tu l'emportes ailleurs

M¨ºme si dans tes danses d'autres dansent tes heures

J'irai chercher ton âme dans les froids dans les flammes

Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m'aimes encore

 

Fallait pas commencer m'attirer me toucher

Fallait pas tant donner moi je sais pas jouer

On me dit qu'aujourd'hui, on me dit que les autres font ainsi

Je ne suis pas les autres

Avant que l'on s'attache, avant que l'on se gâche

 

Je veux que tu saches

 

J'irai chercher ton coeur si tu l'emportes ailleurs

Meme si dans tes danses d'autres dansent tes heures

J'irai chercher ton âme dans les froids dans les flammes

Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m'aimes encore

 

Je trouverai des langages pour chanter tes louanges

Je ferai nos bagages pour d'infinies vendanges

Les formules magiques des marabouts d'Afrique

J'les dirai sans remords pour que tu m'aimes encore

 

Je m'inventerai reine pour que tu me retiennes

Je me ferai nouvelle pour que le feu reprenne

Je deviendrai ces autres qui te donnent du plaisir

Vos jeux seront les nôtres si tel est ton dsir

Plus brillante plus belle pour une autre tincelle

Je me changerai en or pour que tu m'aimes encore

(English Translation)

I understood all the words, I well understood, thanks

Reasonable and new, that's the way here

Things have changed, that flowers get fade

That the time before, was the time before

If all zap and tire, loves also go by

You must know

 

I'll go get your heart if you take it somewhere else

Even if in your dances others dance your hours

I'll go get your soul in the colds in the flammes

I'll cast a spell on you for you to still love me

Shouldn't begin tease me touch me

Shouldn't give so much I don't know how to play

They say that today, they say others do so

I'm not the others

Before we attach to the other, before we spoil each other

I want you to know

 

I'll go get your heart if you take it somewhere else

Even if in your dances others dance your hours

I'll go get your soul in the colds in the flammes

I'll cast a spell on you for you to still love me

 

I'll find languages to sing your praises

I'll make my luggage for infinite vintages

Magic spells from African priests

I'll say them without remorse for you to still love me

I'll name myself queen for you to hold me

 

I'll make myself new to let the fire restart

I'll become these others who give you pleasure

Your games will be ours if that's your wish

More brilliant more beautiful for another spark

I'll change myself into gold for you to still love me

...i'm yours...

I always have this problem of not knowing what to write. 

While walking from the carpark to my office, I usually thought of alot of things for me to say and blog it all out... but once I sit infront of my laptop... my mind went blank... 

Let's start with how life has been going for me... and "Great" is not the right word... neither "Good" is... But it has been pretty okay...

It is safe to say that I have been doing crazy things recently...

Nini left on Wednesday evening... she got a flight out of Frankfurt to Vancouver... so she left for her holiday... it didn't really sank in that she left when I woke up on Thursday morning... but then she smsed me to tell me she's in Frankfurt waiting for her connecting flight. The total flying time from SG to Vancouver via Frankfurt is a total of 29hrs (no typo error there)... I guess, by the time I enter the 20hr mark... I would have gone crazy... 

I collected my Course Materials yesterday. Just one main subject and on UniCore. Since I already passed my Effective Comms, I just need another few more credits... But I will still be one sem behind... doesn't matter... I'll just take my time and hope time pass quickly...

I am in a serious need of a Holiday. hahahaha I guess everyone I know needed one... I can't go end of Oct cos Zila's getting married by then. And I'm leaving for US end of December. Still looking for the cheapest way to fly there...

It's a Friday and I'm still stuck in office... this is one of those days where I would love to shout TGIF... but currently there is nothing much to be thankful except for the presence of family and true friends... 

I can't get Jason Mraz's 'I'm Yours' out of my head and it has been on repeat mode on my iPod since morning... arghz...

The Bitter Separation....

The title of the blog entry is the name of the song I co-wrote with one of my best friends, Elsa Faith. She's one of the best talent in Singapore and it is really sad to see her leave. But then again, she is living her dream in America now. Check her band out at www.myspace.com/souldistraction. 

The story behind this song... is about the betrayal of a good friend and a guy friend. Whatever happened was so long ago. I got over it actually. I can't believe that I did... I liked to thank all those who have helped me through the turmoil. Some of them were right. Time do heal the wound, but then again the scar remains reminding me not to play with "fire". Although I would like to think that all is forgiven and forgotten, it's not exactly chucked in some chest and buried 7 feet under. Like all songs, this song gonna be around for a long time to remind pple not to be too trusting no matter how nice their friends are. I wrote this song in early'06, when I was doing my night shift at HQ. Hahaha... I realised last night that up till only recently, I have totally forgotten the meaning of this song. But last night when Feefee played this song in the car, memories and emotions came flooding. 

All I would like to say is, you should never let anyone make u feel small for when you allow that to happen, you are at the lowest point of your life...

Siti asked for the lyrics of this song last night... so here it is...

I can barely breathe lately 
I only reduce the time I need you 
You never seemed to care at all 
Never oh oh never 
I can barely stand alone now 
Looking outside, I know that you won't be there 
My eyes are open, I look & I stare 
Why aren't you there? 

Let's destroy the forest 
Let's destroy the sea 
Let's destroy the oxygen 
That we inhale in you & me 
That is what humans do 
That is what humans do 
I know who destroyed my heart 
It's you 

Sitting alone at the dinner table 
Ate quietly and crying inside 
I took my time, that seems forever 
Oh such a long, long time 
Why did you speak when there's nothing to say? 
Why did you leave, there's no door anyway? 
How can you forget? 
For I can't forget.. the time we shared 

Let's destroy the forest 
Let's destroy the sea 
Let's destroy the oxygen 
That we inhale in you & me 
That is what humans do 
That is what humans do 
I know who destroyed my heart 
It's you 

Yeah we were all just friends 
What happen in the end? 
Yeah.. I pity the one who's with you... 

Let's destroy the forest 
Let's destroy the sea 
Let's destroy the oxygen 
That we inhale in you & me 
That is what humans do 
That is what humans do 
I know who destroyed my heart 
It's you

You can find the mp3 of the live version of this song here.

selfish... selfless

entah...

that is what i got from a friend when i asked the differnece between selfish and selfless...

again..

I'll be back.... with a vengence...

I guess the club we started will not be just about one person now.. as a club... we are one...

why i hate my brother sometimes...

keeping a kitten is NOT funny...

they wake u up at 3am in the morning and expect u to play with them...

lucky for her i still have some humanity left in me...

i dun understand why can't he just leave the kitten alone... 

and why i haf to offer refuge in my room... 

what do i feed it with...

thank God i dun have a baby... yet...

I need my sleep...

what i am not telling...

i'm so glad finally i get to speak to elsa...

she's more than welcome to have me at the end of the year...

let's hope.. this time... it happens...

...not just about me...

i hate to be feeling this way...

to be feeling that i had a hand in this snowballing effect of being sad and miserable...

well... of course the world does not revolves around me and that everything had to do with me... 

but in some cases... i hate not telling my friends what i really think and making a point to them...

to point where they are right now not really happy with what they are facing with or going through...

you guys know who you are and i really wished there was someyhing i could do to help you guys out of this misery you are going through...

somehow i think that u guys should take some time off alone... i know that would work...

i'm so sorry...