Fight Another Day... that is what I have been telling myself... every night before I go to sleep.
I'm depressed...
You can call this my depressed blog...
I'm so tired...
I want to sleep and rest...
But I've got obligations and responsibilities... which somehow... I'm not able to procrastinate...
Spending a night under the stars in Tenggaroh (Between Kota Tinggi and Mersing)... left me thinking... and trust me.. thinking is not my forte...
I need to make my life worth living... I though my job was enough... but I'm so into work right now that I'm left with no social life... which is bad...
So when I decide to add some social in my life... I over do it and left with no time...
Where do all these people come from? Do they know me? Will they be able to accept me as a friend? Do they know my needs? Is it really important? Do I really know what I want?
This very moment... all I need is an enlightenment... an epiphany...
What should I do? Even if you tell me or help me... will I be able to make it on my own??
I'm trying to look into my scarred heart (or what is left of it)... surpassing the wounds conjured by people whom I love. Wait... Do I still have a heart? Is it ruling my body? Or is my brain doing it's job?
I see my family... They are happy... I'm happy...
I see the lepakgang... They are happy... I'm happy...
I see my friends... They are happy... I'm happy...
or am I? Or have I perfected the art of Smiling that no one knows the difference...
I've heard the line,"People come and go. They will not stay forever. But they will leave prints in your life so that you remember them and smile at the memories that you once had together."
Here I am hoping to meet the person who started this "shit"... obviously you must have been hypnotising people to stay in your life and does not go through the experience of having someone to leave you and that you are forever in your comfort zone...
AH-HA!! That's it... have I found the problem? COMFORT ZONE?? I'm not in my comfort zone? But what exactly is my comfort zone??
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I'm depressed...
You can call this my depressed blog...
I'm so tired...
I want to sleep and rest...
But I've got obligations and responsibilities... which somehow... I'm not able to procrastinate...
Spending a night under the stars in Tenggaroh (Between Kota Tinggi and Mersing)... left me thinking... and trust me.. thinking is not my forte...
I need to make my life worth living... I though my job was enough... but I'm so into work right now that I'm left with no social life... which is bad...
So when I decide to add some social in my life... I over do it and left with no time...
Where do all these people come from? Do they know me? Will they be able to accept me as a friend? Do they know my needs? Is it really important? Do I really know what I want?
This very moment... all I need is an enlightenment... an epiphany...
What should I do? Even if you tell me or help me... will I be able to make it on my own??
I'm trying to look into my scarred heart (or what is left of it)... surpassing the wounds conjured by people whom I love. Wait... Do I still have a heart? Is it ruling my body? Or is my brain doing it's job?
I see my family... They are happy... I'm happy...
I see the lepakgang... They are happy... I'm happy...
I see my friends... They are happy... I'm happy...
or am I? Or have I perfected the art of Smiling that no one knows the difference...
I've heard the line,"People come and go. They will not stay forever. But they will leave prints in your life so that you remember them and smile at the memories that you once had together."
Here I am hoping to meet the person who started this "shit"... obviously you must have been hypnotising people to stay in your life and does not go through the experience of having someone to leave you and that you are forever in your comfort zone...
AH-HA!! That's it... have I found the problem? COMFORT ZONE?? I'm not in my comfort zone? But what exactly is my comfort zone??
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