impending 2008

So... Christmas is coming huh...

I don't celebrate Christmas... But I like driving down Orchard Road and look at the Christmas Lights this year.... Purple and White.. Nice...

So after Christmas is the New Year... and talking about the New Year... It scares me cos I'm starting school... I haven't been to school for years. Okie.. maybe about 2 years. But that is long enough for me to switch off. But nevertheless I'm prepared for it. I actually took out my "LUCKY" bag to be used only for school. The whole idea of having a school bag this time round is weird. Cos back in Poly, I rarely carry any bag as I just dumped my notes/books in the car and occasionally going back to my car in between period to get my books. So anyway... Yeah... I foresee 2008 to be a workaholic year for me...

All I hope is that 2008 to be nice to me...

the early

I find more joy to write here than my blogdrive add..

fitri once asked me why do i need two blogs add.. well i tot this blog will be used for picture entries...

but i've come to find that... I can say more things here as i don't get much traffic... cos the last time i truely type what i felt in my blog.. i'm not happy with the reception...

so what the hell.. i start a new blog adn i can bitch about pple who doesn't know i'm talking about them...

i'm starting to spout nonsense now.. what the freaking hell... am in office now...

gonna start doing my job... like finally...

pppeeevvveeee

I just got back from KL... and I've got so much to update...
Just waiting for the right moment to update..

I thought since I've got time now... Why not?

And so I realise that once I'm logged in to my blogger... I do not have anything to write about...

hmmmp...

Last week before I left for KL, while driving to work... I was caught in a traffic jam. I was already like SUPER late... but what the hell.. it was raining and I'm sure some of my colleagues are caught in the jam too... BUT NO... I was the only one... it was one hell of a major traffic jam.. but I was the only joker caught in it...

Anyway... the jam started from BKE and I saw on the EMAS msg board that the jam is up till stevens road... and I though GREAT!! of all places it have to be near the exit where I'll be exiting... so we slowly inched our way forward... while I had my iPod blasting Backstreet Boy's Inconsolable and Rihanna's and Ne-yo's Hate That I Love you So.(what a coincidence... the song is playing now)

And about 45 minute to 1 hour later I drove by the accident site... and there she was. Covered with a white plastic in between two Traffic Police cars. I don't know who she was and how she left the world. But at that moment it struck me that, during her last moments... she was alone. No one to give her any words of comfort. Slightly upfront I saw a motorcycle parked by the side of the road and a lorry further infront. That particular moment suddenly I had tears in my eyes. It's every one's nightmare... esp for her parents.

My thoughts were still with her as I drove up the North-South Highway(PLUS). I told Nor and Sab how this whole incident had shaken me... and I'm going to banned motorbike riding in my family. And I will make sure every driver in my family will have to just drive carefully and be responsible on the road. (Kakak, sometimes you just have to slow down)

Anyway I would love to update on KL.. but then again.. KL is the same… except this time there’s more rain and… more demonstrations… HINDRAF and BERSIH.. which I totally don’t really care about. I just wanna shop. But then it’s a bit scary… but then again I think the Malaysian Police are doing a good job… I kept seeing police cars and police bikes doing rounds in KL to ensure the safety of other pple… it kind of make me feel safe… though I was rarely on the street. With an exception of petaling street where I was literally walking on the street.


wow.. so from nothing to write.. I noticed that I've written quite alot...

well till the next post laddies...

note: Have anyone seen the latest Giorgio Armani Ad with beckham? HOT HOT HOT!!

fight another day...

Fight Another Day... that is what I have been telling myself... every night before I go to sleep.

I'm depressed...

You can call this my depressed blog...

I'm so tired...

I want to sleep and rest...

But I've got obligations and responsibilities... which somehow... I'm not able to procrastinate...

Spending a night under the stars in Tenggaroh (Between Kota Tinggi and Mersing)... left me thinking... and trust me.. thinking is not my forte...

I need to make my life worth living... I though my job was enough... but I'm so into work right now that I'm left with no social life... which is bad...

So when I decide to add some social in my life... I over do it and left with no time...

Where do all these people come from? Do they know me? Will they be able to accept me as a friend? Do they know my needs? Is it really important? Do I really know what I want?

This very moment... all I need is an enlightenment... an epiphany...

What should I do? Even if you tell me or help me... will I be able to make it on my own??

I'm trying to look into my scarred heart (or what is left of it)... surpassing the wounds conjured by people whom I love. Wait... Do I still have a heart? Is it ruling my body? Or is my brain doing it's job?

I see my family... They are happy... I'm happy...

I see the lepakgang... They are happy... I'm happy...

I see my friends... They are happy... I'm happy...

or am I? Or have I perfected the art of Smiling that no one knows the difference...

I've heard the line,"People come and go. They will not stay forever. But they will leave prints in your life so that you remember them and smile at the memories that you once had together."

Here I am hoping to meet the person who started this "shit"... obviously you must have been hypnotising people to stay in your life and does not go through the experience of having someone to leave you and that you are forever in your comfort zone...

AH-HA!! That's it... have I found the problem? COMFORT ZONE?? I'm not in my comfort zone? But what exactly is my comfort zone??

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Suddenly...

the tiny spice girl fan in me crept out from the deept dungeons in my heart...

hahahahah laugh all you want... you know u are a fan too...

Hanisa the Psychic

Wooohhohooo....

A few weeks ago... while I was msn... I saw my friend Hanisa online and her nick was... First Taufik, Then Hady and Now Fendi... *or something to that extand lah*.... so next time I wanna buy 4D numbers... I will call you Hanisa.. hehehehehe

Anyway.. Congratulations to Fendi.... YEAY!! Tak sia-sia I vote for you all this while.. you've got it lah brother...

shocking? or not?

Read this

So my point is.... No matter how wise or respected u r... u can always be different... and still be loved all the same...

in my Life...

WOoooHhHhhhOOOoo... it's here.. in Singapore.. in my house.. in my room... in my comp... need i say more??

the first batch.... thanks to my bro...

Salam Aidilfitri

My Needs

For those who need help and doesn't know what to get me for my birthday... hehehehe here's a guide.. but please... contact my sister if u are not sure which stuff i've already gotten... the pictures on top are places which I would love to visit... please for GENEROUS donations.. call me!! I'll be glad to hand over my bank acct number to u guys...

love aidiah

when i have nothing better to do...

bliss

I believe the storm is not over yet...

And when it's over... I hope it doesn't go forever...

For I need the storm... need it to remind me to appreciate the calmness that I need in life...

i fear

I am so worried for the lives of two of my dear friends...

I seriously think they have a stalker... Well.. at first it might sound fun and stuff to have a stalker.. but in reality NOT AT ALL...

For someone to go to and apply for a particular sec sch just because you once studied there.. it's a compliment... but to go around saying u love that person and then suddenly changed your mind and say "fuck" to that person.. it's just unfair and plain rude. RUDE RUDE RUDE....

If i ever get to meet this person... I'll will definitely fuck her and tell her to get a life... i don't care if she kills herself.. cos i don't think she have the guts to do so... and also... if she does... we'll have more oxygen to breathe.

in the light... is hope

books.. books..

Oh books... I miss going out with Nor to go to Borders and search for books... I miss walking around Borders aimlessly... I miss going to Starbucks Liat Towers after Borders... I miss walking back to the URA Carpark at Angullia Park after all that...

I wanna start reading all the books that I have right now... I have tons of books at home.. most of which was bought on impulse and I never got around to reading it... These are those 'chick flick' books... ones that I bought at books warehouse sale... The ones that I end up reading are those that I bought of the shelves... and are really expensive...

I was suppose to read "Jonathan Strange and Mrs Norell". I bought the book after I saw Seth Cohen reading in one of the episodes on The O.C. But after reading the first chapter I got distracted by another book... then while reading that distracting book... I got distracted by another book...

Life is full of distractions... I just can't seem to keep up with it... Life is moing far too fast for me.. when was the last time I actually had time for myself... all this while I've been chasing Life's dream.. and not mine...

Argh... WTF.. I'm going back to reading Eleven Minutes by Mr Paulo Coelho...........

Updates! Updates!

"Oh now i'm done believing you...
you don't know what I'm feeling"

Wow... it has been sometime since I last blog here... hahaha here are some updates abt my life so far.....

1) Nofy a.k.a Elsa is back in SINGAPORE till the end of May.
2) Went to Aussie Land and came back...
3) Desperately waiting for Amin to comeback from Taiwan.
4) Desperately waiting for GPTV2 this coming june.

Yeah.. as u can see.. nothing much has happened since the last post.. except that Nofy is back for this month... and this time her hubby will come too.. but not now yet... he have to settle some stuff back in US... coming in the middle of this month.

so.. i think i'll update when i have more time as i have to leave for work now.... and i have absolutely nothing to wear.

think abt it

so today... my sister, my brother and i... make our way to suntec city... for the it show 2007... we are one of those kiasu pple who went to suntec today... we are one of those pple who walk in an "orderly" manner and make a beeline to hall 4 of suntec city...

but unlike 70% of the pple who went there... we actually went there with a purpose.. it was to get the camera a wuickly as possible and then get the hell out... i can't stand crowds... just like how i can't stand small spaces and heights... to make it worse... i can't the stand the smell of someone pple who smell like rotten bananas... for godness sake.. it's the weekends.. please treat urself to a bath...

so we headed straight for canon... my sister told me not to waste time... ask the man wat i want and asked him the basic functions.. and just go get it... so yeah a guy named "Jason" thought me the basic functions and explain all the free gifts stuff... and then brought me to the payment counter.. i can't help but notice (not so "thank God" the queue was long and the staff was slow) the pple behind the counter was kinda good looking... i had a full 30mins to "wash" my eyes... hahah

oh wanna digress a bit.. i met alicia while waiting... she bought a camera too.. and she's going australia next week... wat a coincidence!! and she told me that the BBQ will happen soon... so... i'll be waiting for her sms... she's still as nice as always...

so after payment.. i went to the free gift collection booth... then... i took up the extended warranty thingy.. and was told to wait for another 3 days for the invoice... so my camera now has a 3year and 6mths warranty... and i'm suppose to send the camera for servicing everytime i come back from overseas...

so now.. all i have to do is learn how to use the camera... hahahaha...

piss

Rumah terbakar nampak asapnye...hati terbakar siapa yang tahu...saya kapal karam melaporkan dari bilik awam.

mischa!!!

when the strength of...

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

let's face the truth together

"i'm going to avoid watever or whoever i'm avoiding... until that watever or whoever ceased to exist in my life..."

sorry friend... things can never go back to the way it used to be... sure i do miss those times where we laugh and gossip together... but... it's jsut to hard to look at some pple and not think of the crap i have been getting....

sorry... i am so sorry

I went to Popular Bookstore just now... again.. those who know me too well... will know that I'm not suppose to go Popular unnecessarily... see what happen... I bought pens.... two blue pen.. and one black pen.. because my pen at work always gets stolen... and the weird part is that I labeled my pen with my name!!!! ad they didn't even bother to return them... haiz.... just so you know my favourite pen is a pilot pen... the code is BP-145-F-L"Pilot BETTER RETRACTABLE PEN" a kind smooth pen to write with.. I like...

I bought DVD casing for my DVD's.... erm... yeah.. so I'm going ikea to buy the DVD shelf for my DVD collection.. but Mum say to look for a place to put the shelf first... damnz... and i just scanned around my room.. hmmmp.... nope... no space...

locked metal boxed

here i am... at 2 am in the morning... in the office... blogging... why? cos i still have work today that is due tmr... erm.. not really.. but this is starting to feel like poly days... where we will sleep till late at night and do our work.. or we will sleep over at a friend's place.. and study for exams or term test... oh the joy... and sometimes...i will somehow manage to convince my mum to allow me to stay over at friend's place.. esp towards the last years of poly... i can't use the excuse that most will use which is the "it's late and i don't want to catch a cab" excuse... cos i drove to school...

anyway... i was talking to Nor yesterday... and somehow Fiza came up and became the talk of our topic... which i totally cannot remember... then i realise that i should knock some sense into her... i then sms fiza.... i was really in my "kakak-kakak" mode.... my fren who knew me well... will know that it is so unlike me to be "kakak-kakak" cos.. i think pple who act that way should be shot dead.... like seriously... snap out of it.

ok.. my number 2 is back.. bye

the number 7

nope.. not talking about david beckham... just that i just found out that the 7th book of the harry potter series will be called.... jeng jeng jeng... Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows... don't know wat it means... and seriously.. don't care.. just can't wait for it to come out!!

honey......dew!!!

I attended a course today at HQ... and had lunch with Noraini... went to Chinatown Square... cos I had this silly idea of having lunch at Delifrance... was craving for the chicken mayo sandwich.. I ended up having something else... so after lunch... Nor casually mention "Oh yeah... you were the one who likes Honeydew Ice Blended" and I said... "Yeah. It's a pity coffee bean don't have it anymore"...... and Nor said.... she just had it yesterday... and as I turn around (behind me was CBTL) I SAW THE POSTER... BACK BY POPULAR DEMAND..... I guess the random feedback letters.... (in hundreds) that I might have send worked.... hahahaha okay lah.. I didn't send any... but whoever made Mr CBTL bring it back..... I can't Thank You enough.... WoooHoo.... but at $6.40... it's quite expensive... Yes, I love my Honeydew stuff... but I rather pay less for my Caramel Hot Chocolate at Starbucks... so... CBTL Feedback Unit.... DO SOMETHING...

I have to mention the lunch talk I had with Nor... hahahaha We came up with ideas for Fiza's Website... Like her fan-club or something... and we are going to be the web-administrator... and one of the things that we thought of was a "Did-You-Know" column... this column is about things that you guys didn't know about Fiza... hahahahaha... we came up with a few.. and not only that... we came up with fake ones too... some examples are "Did you know that Fiza thought that a cable car was a real car?" and also like... "Did you know that Fiza named her cat after her favourite TV brand?"... yeah stuff like that... I so hope that Fiza won't come to this blog of mine... at least while this post is up... so me and Nor are meeting up soon... to come up with a plan for her website...

Went to the airport just now... my cousin's flight is supposed to reach s'pore at 2130hrs... I left home at 2115hrs.... and guess what??? I made it to the airport in time... maybe not exactly at 2130hrs... i reached about 2135hrs... yeah... from Woodlands to CT T1... and all that freaking night traffic...(damn u r**-pl***rs) it's an achievement... some stupid drivers were driving at 80km/h at the first lane... i guess he must be stupid or something... maybe he was thinking... "I'm a safe driver" lemme tell you something mister... NO YOU ARE NOT A-Hole!!! You are an endangered species that no one cares for if u extinct...

Wow... since when did I become such an angry person... I have never been like this before?? Is this my altered ego?? Think about it...

amazing

I was at the National Stadium yesterday... the atmosphere was brilliant... I remembered those days when I was just 10, 11 and 12... my dad would bring me and my sister to the stadium to watch the Lions take on Malaysian states team... before they had the M League.. they had those div1 and div 2 thingy.. it sucks... when Singapore lost to Kedah during the M Cup final back in 1993... but I was there at Shah Alam Stadium in 1994 to see Fandi Ahmad lift the Malaysia Cup for the Singapore for the final time. The stadium looked like it belongs to Singapore.. I still remembered that 3/4 of the stadium was filled with Singapore Fans... and the Pahang Fans left after 3-0... we thrashed them 4-0...

As I was saying... I really liked the atmosphere at National Stadium yesterday... the match could have been better... i don't think Singapore team played very well... the passing wasn't good... and it was obviously they didn't communicate with each other... the defence...i'm not going to mention names... but I was glad that at the earlier matches some defender was dropped cos he wasn't good enuff to be on the first 11... just too bad that Aide Iskandar got the red in the dying minutes in M'sia leg of the semi's... the Malaysians on the other hand had a good thing going... just no luck for them... it's sad that a good match had to end with penalty kicks... i'm not a fan of penalty kicks...n yesterday's kicks... almost gave me a heart attack...

I don't know if I'll be at the stadium again for the first leg of the finals... all I hope is that.. if Singapore really wanna win the AFC... they have to buck up their game... cos if they are going to meet the Thai's.. with the same attitude or match fitness like when they met Malaysia... the Cup is not making it back to Singapore guys...

the voices...

was talking to fitri and baini on the phone... conference talk.. fitri using her new k800i... eksyen seyz budak tu...

so as we were talking on the phone.. we were also surfing the net.. especially frienster.... hahah laughing at baini's profile... and the best part was fitri imitating voices....

the scenario given was our KL trip together with the pasir ris girls... fitri is a damned idiot... hahahah made me laugh till tears all... fitri should have her own stand up comedy...

on a more serious note... elsa is not feeling too good.. she got kidney stones... the only time i heard about kidney stones was in "friends".. the episode where phoebe gave birth to her brother's triplets... babe.. i hope u will get well soon... think of fitri and her jokes wen u are in pain... it will help.. trust me...